I've Lost It

I used to be a person who was constantly thinking for ideas and extremely alert.

And then I still was when I changed company and joined where I am now, but that was only for the first year. 

In my first year there, I was still very excited and passionate about the things I was doing. But somehow down the years, each time I was excited about something, a cold shower rained down on me. 

And my passion just sizzled off.

I have tried very often to rekindle that passion. It was that drive that kept me going, and made me shine like a Star. Now as the passion is no more, the shine no longer exits.

It's depressing. Because I really miss those moments. And I'm still trying to rekindle it. 

I asked myself if it was me or the environment and after years of repeating this question, I realised it's the environment.

I'm now aiming not to let the wick in me disappear. Without the wick, the hope of flame is totally gone, isn't it.

I'm now looking for new grounds and passion in life. Where I am now is getting so meaningless and is wasting my time away.