Frankly, I've been waiting for this day for a long time. Because we've been together for some time, and because I thought, like most women in their 30s, the biological clock is ticking.
But when this day came, I wasn't the most excited. I woke up earlier than expected because it was my wedding day, and I needed to be up and nice for my stylist and photographer. And my bridesmaids and everyone else would be up early too. The whole day came and went very quickly. I enjoyed my wedding day very much, because it was really fun for everyone, not just us.
A tad pity though was both my husband and I agreed, that we didn't manage to spend more time with all our friends and colleagues who came to celebrate with us. We did mingle, but alas, we both felt it wasn't good enough.
After all the fun, it was life back to reality. I recalled the moment when I was to sign on the Marriage Certificate and I paused. I realised it is for real and there's no turning back. And getting married wasn't that 'fun' after all. It's complete change in all aspects of life. I thought I would be prepared for married life, but it wasn't so. I am now having a little hard time coping with living away from my loving parents (yes, now I realised they have been so so so so GOOD to me) and my siblings. I've been sharing the same bedroom for the past 28 years with my sister and would often force her to stay awake to listen to my nonsense. And my brother, whom I often 'bully' (ah boy, it's for your own good!!). And now all, with 07 Dec 08, are all going to be history.
This, I never expected that the adjustment would be so difficult.
I know life goes on, and I always believe time is the universal medicine for mankind. However, it is this adjustment phase that I find it so difficult to go through.
I really miss home.
2 comments:
i recalled my same mixed feelings of not being in my 'own' room at my parent's place after my wedding. now i'm so happy i can just 'escape' home when my parents are in a nagging mood. :)
:*( miss you too..
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