Friendships

I've always long for a lasting friendship - the type when your friend(s) saw you at your worst when you broke up with that jerk or when he proposed.

I regretted not spending enough time to build those friendships I had in my younger days. I was too engrossed in working hard in getting into University, and each time after a graduation, I just moved on and made new friends. But all these never last.

Friendships, to me, are important in life. It balances things up, besides the usual love relationship you have with your partner. It provides a sense of sanity in the midst of those crazy moments when you get too swarmed up in emotions. Good friends hold you down on the ground when you get too euphoric, and warn you over those traps you'd likely to fall into. Good friends do not calculate about how much they have put into, they are just there whenever you need them.

While I do not have a truly long-lasting good friendship (by long-lasting, I mean those who'd gone through school with you, while I do have a childhood friend, but she's not a good friend) nor a best friend, I do have some good friends whom I've made along the way.

I've bitched about them, complained about their in-sensitivities as well as barked hard and be curt at them. But they just took all my nonsense and somehow pretended it never occurred and lived life as usual. While I feel sort of embarrassed and sorry for my actions, I also felt appreciative of their acceptance of my emotional moments and pettiness.

I guess maybe that's how strong long-lasting friendships are built on - roughing out the edges. I don't know if they'd still be around 10 years from now on when we each have our family, but I really really wish we'd still be good friends, catch up with or without our kids/family, as ever often.

I really wish. And I promise not to be so emotional. I'd try.