Yes, I believe. Because I'm getting them these days.
They are not the usual once-only thoughts that comes and never return. For me, it's a series of 'attacks' that appear suddenly out of no where. It doesn't help either that magazines, TV and even radio has been on the topic of infidelity lately.
Latest case where a man married for 16 years with 2 children had a passionate kiss with another woman and his wife is now seeking divorce. The 2 DJs were discussing if kissing constitute infidelity and if it warrant a divorce from the wife.
To me, it's clear-cut. There is betrayal because kissing is an act of passion and intimacy. How would a man be intimate with another woman? How about the wife doing the same thing to another man?
To think one of the DJ said 'can't blame him, it's been 16 years after all'. Then how has the wife been coping those 16 years?
I am not saying that women may not be infidel too. But the proportion between the two genders is so unequal that whenever we talk about infidelity, we think of the married man, and a single woman.
I'm lucky to be in a healthy relationship. We have our occasional squabbles and disagreements, but that's just it. But I'm still scared. Fearful of the unknown future, how things would be, would there be heartaches.
No one likes heartaches. I've had mine before and the pain is excruciating. It's a mix feeling of pain and fear, right in the physical heart we have, with a strong sense of cringe.
I don't want that feeling to ever come back again. I'm afraid, very afraid.
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Remember the "You have two choices" that I sent you? If things meant to happen, will happen. Pointless to think about what if it happens..cos it will bring you too much uncertainties and insecurity. Just be happy and enjoy being together. :)
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