Julliet - Je Taime

I always love July. It's a month of celebrations, but I have also realised for the past recent 2 years of July, I often had a mix of emotions.

I recall spending my birthday last year in London with my very good friend and her family, and spending the rest of the weeks in other parts of Europe, but the trip was cut short because my wallet was pick-pocketed - so that was a sense of exasperation, fear, and disappointment all rolled into one in the city of Paris - a city I so loved. I didn't manage to complete my stay at the Pullman overlooking the Eiffel - and so I shall, perhaps, next year.

This year, due to work commitments and having been too bitten by travel bugs beginning of the year, I had to give Europe a miss.

Birthday was nonetheless yet another memorable one, as I had celebrations with family, close friends, and my bunch of fun-loving colleagues. For almost 2 years, I had my first KTV session and I literally sang my lungs out.

This July, like the previous, is a mixed of emotions. Great disappointments came once more mid July as I discovered things at work, but some how now I recover faster. One night was all I took to overcome the disappointments. It also threw light into things I thought I should do and stuff I should let go. And also learning that value is one we give ourselves and never to depend on others, as how a friend put it aptly, "Your value is dependent on how others think you are useful to them; it does not say anything about your true actual value." How true.

But on the flip side, who doesn't want to feel valued? The extra appreciation and recognition that "You are good!" does make everyone's day, regardless of how confident or valuable you perceive yourself to have.

I now learn to count my blessings. I tell myself I still have others who value me and are pressing me to contribute. I should not forsake their confidence and insist on another place where my value dwindles by the way. The same applies to relationships, I reckon.

I'm excited to see how things are moving towards the end of the year, as I have many plans. Oh well, plus a tad bit of apprehension for what comes next are stuff I have not been a specialist in, but I know I will cope and ride up the steep learning curve now that I've toughen up.

So till the next post, all the best to me (and you too, my readers).